Free audio book! “GET CLEAN”

So I’ve decided to upload the audio book version of Get Clean to YouTube. Each of the 26 chapters will be uploaded individually over the next week or so (two or three chapters to be uploaded a day, I think), so please hop on over to YouTube, subscribe to my channel, and listen to my first ever novel being narrated by yours truly, James Ross.

And yes, if once you’ve heard the story and think it’d make a great movie… the script is ready to go, so get in touch! 😉

My fiction writing is available here – http://amzn.to/2nw1G4t
My YouTube channel – http://hyperurl.co/JamesRossYouTube

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Dreams Dissolve…

“Beyond Your Tunnel Vision Reality Fades Like Shadows Into The Night”

Those of you that have read my first published novel, Get Clean, will know that I’ve had a head-on collision with drink and drugs that for a while there, looked like getting the better of me. It didn’t, thankfully, but it is the sort of thing that doesn’t slip the memory once it has happened, which I’ll assert is a good thing.

What it also does do, experiencing something like the mess I put myself in, is help you to understand others who have been in/are in similar situations themselves; I can relate. So when I stumbled across the Dreams Dissolve blog, and read what a young woman by the name of Crystal had been writing, I knew she was not only talking from experience, but from the heart, and also the darkest parts of the mind.

I asked her if I could republish one of her pieces on my blog and she said yes. So, without further ado…

Memories Of Withdrawals

Physical, emotional, and mental anguish you are preparing to make  your escape. You say it’s going to be the last time because it has  finally taken everything from you. It’s left you empty, cold, careless,  selfish, incapable, and scared. You know your time is running out, and  your options are minimizing by the second, if you don’t stop now there  is only one outcome; death. So you pause, you think to yourself, is it  worth it? I’ve now lost almost everything, but I still have hope. But  will hope be enough to get you through the night? You just did your last shot of dope so you’re nice and comfortable in that warm blanket of  that blissful high you long for. At this moment, you are positive, you  are ready, you are strong, and you tell yourself it won’t be that hard.  You make your final decision and go home ready for the battle your body  is about to fight.Waiting for your high to ware off is eating at your mind. It’s almost like waiting for a car accident to happen. You already feel helpless  and it hasn’t even begun. You try to prepare yourself the best you can,  you’ve taken Advil, you’ve got a fan, you’ve got a blanket, and you’ve  got your garbage bin beside your bed.

Breathe, breathe, deep breaths. You think it has to get worse before it gets better; right?

You know drugs have a hold over the body, but the body has a hold  over the drugs too. The need…the desire…the demand. The chemistry. You  are now a hostage, your body and mind are screaming in every way  possible. Your temperature is raging from hot to cold in the matter of  seconds; your limbs are burning intensely; you are sweating profusely,  yet shivering; your muscles feel as if they have been lit with a match;  your stomach is turning and knotting; your skin is itching like you have been bitten by thousands of mosquitoes; your eyes and nose are watering uncontrollably; your head is throbbing, pounding; your sneezing and  yawning constantly. So much pain, physically, mentally, emotionally.

Your body is officially holding you ransom. If you don’t give it what it wants it will make you sick, it will hurt you, it will kill you.

Your body screams hour upon hour, never giving you a moments rest,  until finally you are so exhausted you fall into a nightmarish sleep.

You eventually make it through a night and it still hasn’t let up. So you tell yourself; I’ll just use one more time, one more time and  that’s it.

If you are an addict, have been, or know someone who is or was, then you’ll be interested in reading more of what Crystal has to say on her website here. She scribes very well and her blog posts pack a punch of reality. Even if you have no experience of drugs (good for you), I recommend giving her innermost thoughts and feelings a little screen time, as there aren’t many who speak as honestly and openly as she does; it is  a breath of fresh air, and also reassuring to know that behind problems with drink and drugs, there are people who think, feel, care… and have talent.

A selection of reviews for ‘Get Clean’ – Just for the crack…

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5.0 out of 5 stars Gripping story!, 17 Mar 2013
By W. Webster (Luton, UK) – See all my reviews
(REAL NAME) This review is from: Get Clean – Addiction, bad decisions and terrible friends. (Kindle Edition)
Gritty reality of drug abuse and misadventure. Could hardly put the book down. Gripping story which kept me wanting more. Great ending. Recommended!

5.0 out of 5 stars It could happen to anyone, 11 Mar 2013
By Ginger1 – See all my reviewsAmazon Verified Purchase(What is this?)
This review is from: Get Clean: Addiction, bad decisions and terrible friends. (Paperback)
A very well written and gripping story, I could not put down. This is a story that could happen to anybody. What starts off as a weekend dabble could and quite often does escalate to a place and tempo that you don’t expect and have no control over. Being a part of and witnessing things that would scare the pants off an old lady!!!
Parts of this vivid account in the life of James Walker will hit home to some very bad decisions you would have made in your own lives, while making you smile and wince at the same time.
In the style of the great green master…. right path to find, bad decisions make you will!!!
Highly recommended to anyone who has lived this sort of life however small and to those who have not it will give some great insight to the thought processes of an addict and what drives them. Next read Son of a Serial Killer, can’t wait Help other customers find the most helpful reviews

4.0 out of 5 stars Get clean, 3 Mar 2013
By mandy – See all my reviewsAmazon Verified Purchase(What is this?)
This review is from: Get Clean – Addiction, bad decisions and terrible friends. (Kindle Edition)
Enjoyed this, easy to read and kept you wondering. Would definitely suggest this to others to read. Would read more of this author’s books.

5.0 out of 5 stars Edgy – good read!, 26 Feb 2013
By Eva – See all my reviewsAmazon Verified Purchase(What is this?)
This review is from: Get Clean – Addiction, bad decisions and terrible friends. (Kindle Edition)
This book had me on the edge at every turn. Would highly recommend
Will be looking out for the next Jams N.Roses book Help other customers find the most helpful reviews
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5.0 out of 5 stars Excellent read -would recommend, 25 Feb 2013
By Little Gem xxx – See all my reviewsAmazon Verified Purchase(What is this?)
This review is from: Get Clean – Addiction, bad decisions and terrible friends. (Kindle Edition)
Excellent book, well written and enjoyed it that much i downloaded son of a serial killer as well. Would recommend it! Help other customers find the most helpful reviews

5.0 out of 5 stars Fantastically well written book, finished it the same day I purchased it, 23 Feb 2013
By Sjb – See all my reviewsAmazon Verified Purchase(What is this?)
This review is from: Get Clean – Addiction, bad decisions and terrible friends. (Kindle Edition)
Lived in Spain for around 6 years myself so it brought back one or two memories, good and bad. Really enjoyed it, very well written and ill look forward to the authors next book. Hope he continues with this sort of genre. Help other customers find the most helpful reviews

5.0 out of 5 stars Fantastic book, 21 Feb 2013
By kyla – See all my reviewsThis review is from: Get Clean – Addiction, bad decisions and terrible friends. (Kindle Edition)
Really well written and kept me gripped to the end. Would definitely recommend. Can’t wait to start the next one – son of a serial killer Help other customers find the most helpful reviews

4.0 out of 5 stars Great read, great characters, 20 Feb 2013
By Tim Spencer – See all my reviewsAmazon Verified Purchase(What is this?)
This review is from: Get Clean – Addiction, bad decisions and terrible friends. (Kindle Edition)
I bought this book because of the high rating and it did not disappoint. Well structured and not a book you will want to put down until its finished. I will look for further titles from “Jams N. Roses. Help other customers find the most helpful reviews

5.0 out of 5 stars True to life, 19 Feb 2013
By Specs – See all my reviewsAmazon Verified Purchase(What is this?)
This review is from: Get Clean – Addiction, bad decisions and terrible friends. (Kindle Edition)
A well written and all to scary account of what could be any town in England, drugs, bullies, thugs….sounds like most of the towns i have worked in.
The characters are well written, looking forward to this authors next piece. Help other customers find the most helpful reviews